I didn’t need the last big blow up to happen.
- The need for change had been apparent for quite some time.
But the fact that I almost hurt someone else out of my frustrations and anger stopped me in my tracks. How many times had I blown up like this before without even really understanding what had happened. This blow up happened as I was getting in the car when I received more bad news from work. I just sort of flipped out and aggressively drove out of the parking lot almost hitting a lady just walking by. I took the next day off and I headed for therapy. I also headed for the cannabis dispensary. I had experience with the calming affect of cannabis products a long time ago. I guess I should have stayed with marijuana. But at the time, it was illegal and would have killed my career had I been found out or worse, gotten busted for a bag of cannabis. So I just put it away and strapped on more stress than I would ever be able to handle. That lady, just inches from my front bumper, forced me to re-examine my priorities and my perspective. And that’s where the sativa products come into play. Back in the day, I only rarely was able to get real sativa strains for sale. Mostly, it was weed whose THC content and lineage were a complete mystery. But when I did get some sativa strains, my perspective was so much more balanced. The small things didn’t add up into overwhelming big things back then. I’ve been in therapy now for a month and using sativa products as well. Things have just begun to change and I think I’m sticking with this plan for sure.